This evening was my second consecutive night of edgy, bored dissatisfaction. My brain has started to repair itself, and my thoughts and energy are beginning to flow again, but my body remains damaged and weak, and I am starting to chafe against its restrictions. Unable to return to my usual routines, but no longer in … More a lesson is seldom learnt only once
I lay in the warm glow of my husband Clive’s arms last night, where I feel most alive in every delightful cell of my body. It seems to draw electric energy from his fingertips. Being home, and being healthy (following a successful procedure to plug the hole in my leaking spine), both seem like luxurious … More On love, and sharing
There are times when the dam wall breaks: all the little things add up to one unbearable ache in the centre of my chest, and the tears that have seemed a distant memory become a flood that washes away all points of stability.
Today is my fifth day in King’s College Hospital, and I finally remembered to ask my husband to bring my ipod with him when he visited. Once he (looking exhausted) and our boys (full of energy) had left, I uncurled the headphone cables excitedly, chose my favourite playlist, and lay back, feeling my heart lift … More Small Milestones
I sang Greg Brown’s ‘Spring Wind’ as a lullaby to my youngest son today, and it is the first time in many months I have sung it. It was a song we played at my mother’s cremation, and it brings back powerful memories of the weeks after her death – I know I have mentioned … More Simple Grief
It seems logical that my first post after a month away from my blog should be an update. I am still unwell and undiagnosed (more about that later), and the trip to South Africa was difficult health-wise but otherwise very positive, and full of wonderful connections and exciting visions of the future.
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog. Here’s an excerpt: A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 5,200 times in 2011. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 4 trips to carry that many people. Click here to … More 2011 in review